Will Hope be Shattered by Loss?
By:
Annette Thomas
I
can’t be with her anymore;
As
a friend, lover, or otherwise
It
is not worth my sanity and heart.
It
hurts each time she walks away.
The
first time, I completely gave
Her
my soul, everything I had;
And
she walked away, leaving
Me
broken and trampled on.
The
second time, we agreed only
To
friendship. Once more, I gave
It
all that I had; opening myself
Up
yet again, only to have her leave.
And
this third time, she spoke of
Making
it work together and to
Speak
if I had concerns or was
Worried
about something.
At
first, I was taken to the
Depths
of doubt. I questioned
What
could go wrong and all
That
was good in the relationship.
But
still, I held onto hope.
Hope
for a life together.
Hope
for happiness again.
Hope
for love’s resurrection.
She
claimed I was trying too
Hard.
Is that not what people
Do
in relationships? Try and
Strive
to give it your best shot.
Well,
you know the drill.
She
left, asking me to stop
Calling
and “enjoy” my day.
What
the hell?
“I’m
over it,” I said, but
It
still hurts as I had given
Myself
to her completely,
Only
to have her vanish.
Despite
it all, I was
Hopeful.
I gave it my all.
I
tried with everything in me.
Will
hope be shattered by loss?
Yesterday, when I was at Unity of Fort Collins (after meeting with the folks at Heart Talks), I found my answer. It was sitting on the shelf of freebies in the Community Corner. There was a blue bracelet calling to me. It had one single word on it: Hope. There is love out there for me (so everyone says). Will I find it? Will I have to wait a year and a half to go out on another date? I don't know, but I do know this: I will hope. My hope will not be shattered by loss. So, I'm taking this to my blog and I will share my story with you as a confessional poet. I simply ask that you, too, hope. Don't let anyone take that from you. Long live hope!
